| Saturday, September 02, 2006 |
| System Overload |
I've made it through the first full week of classes... its not so much the class load that is getting to me, but the number of hours I'm working is a bit much. During the week I'm finding it hard to get everything done without stress attaching itself to me.
One thing that I've discovered (once again) is the importance of spending my time with God each day. While I may think that I need to use the time for school work, I know that God blesses me when I remember to include Him in my day. Without fail, I am able to accomplish more when I put Him in control than when I try to do everything on my own.
So why, when I write about How God is my strength to make it through, have I entitled this post "system overload"?
I've been thinking the past few days about how ready I am to just be out of school. This past summer, after work, I was able to simply live my life without having to think about work or school. I was able to concentrate on what I wanted to do and think about where my life is headed. Now, granted, part of this thinking was about where I would be after I graduate in May. If I don't continue on with school this year, everything I had in mind would be worthless. I need to finish my degree in order to return to the Foundation in May for the residency. Also, after all the money and time I've spent on my education thus far, it would be stupid to quit now.
I guess I'm just really impatient to get on with my life. I feel as if I've been stuck in one place for so long and I'm ready to move on... even though I've been all over the country in the past 4 years. The word that seems to fit best to describe what I'm longing for is stability... yes, that's the word Todd used about 7 weeks ago. I'm ready to be done with wondering if finances will balance out from month to month, wondering if I'll have time to get my studying in so that I can continue working enough hours to meet my financial obligations. I'm tired of being tired. I feel as if I just don't belong anywhere. Sure I have a ton of friends here at school, but nowhere that I really belong.
Its rather funny... today while talking with Pastor Paul, he mentioned how it would be hard for me after graduation leaving all my friends. Well, it will be hard leaving Amy. Sure I'll miss everyone else, but Amy's really the only one I can confide in here. I'm ready to move to Florida and start over. Now... I'm not sure if Florida is where I want to stay for the rest of my life, but I think I can stay with the South (a Carolina maybe?) as Todd doesn't want to move to the "north." Of course, the one who said he'd not date a northern girl... well... I'm from PA... and that's pretty north.
Hmm... I feel as if I'm rambling. I guess this is all I've started to write in my journal the past few days, but I don't take the time to write more than a few lines since writing by hand takes so long. I guess its a good thing that really the only person who reads this is Todd. K... I think I'm done. |
posted by Elizabeth @ 5:45 PM  |
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Hey, you have a light at the end of the tunnel, and you really can't go wrong there. Sure, it's a few more months, and sure, you've come down with a case of Senioritis, but it's only natural, and then "real life" begins and, I have to tell you, that can kinda suck sometimes!
Oh, and seriously, I can't be the only person who reads this, I'm sure that Amy and other of your friends do!
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Hey, you have a light at the end of the tunnel, and you really can't go wrong there. Sure, it's a few more months, and sure, you've come down with a case of Senioritis, but it's only natural, and then "real life" begins and, I have to tell you, that can kinda suck sometimes!
Oh, and seriously, I can't be the only person who reads this, I'm sure that Amy and other of your friends do!